Monday, 21 April 2014

Unbearable pain




I know i shouldn't think that much, i know i shouldn't be so emo. That's too much. I know already had someone beside me, trying so hard to accompany me, cheer me up. But i just can't help myself from thinking, crying, dying. It's too much pain to bare. I can stop talking & mentioning about this, but deep inside..i can't. Memories kills. I reread your blog i asked you to create few years back just now. I know i shouldn't read it, but i really miss how things used to be. All the good and the bad memories we had. That's too deep, too deep. I can't forget. I rather accept the fact that we'd already broke up…not  contacting each other than you're forever gone. I really hate what happened right now, but i can do nothing, nothing. You're the reason why and who i am today. But now, i feel so weak.

I don't know who can i talk to right now, he went to class. Even if he's here..i can't tell him. I'm tired of crying in front of people, i hate showing my weaknesses in front of others. But i'm dying inside, i can't stop myself from thinking. Sometimes, i can hold my tears from falling down, but sometimes i can't stop myself from crying..You have a special place in my heart, you're always on my mind, this is about to tear me apart. But i don't wanna forget every single thing we had. It's almost two weeks already, i waited and waited for you to talk to me. I'm wondering, where are you… Why didn't you come see me in my dream? I wanna talk to you, so badly. 

只要一静下来,我就快崩溃了。

Friday, 18 April 2014

生命如此的讽刺


I don't know where to start, how to start.
我挣扎了好久好久,不知道应不应该写这篇文章。
可是不在这里发泄该在哪里发泄呢?可以告诉谁呢?


最近发生了一些事,一些我不想相信的事,我不知道该怎么说。
如果可以 我真的不想面对,不想接受事实。
我很难过,连家也不敢回。我在父母面前故作坚强忍住泪水。
那晚,我看见妈妈一直红着眼眶我心真的很痛,但是我们都没有说出口。

不知道为什么我的人生需要经历那么多波折
我才23岁,为什么要经历那么多生离死别。
如果时间可以回到21岁生日那年该有多好……………….

我不知道该怎么形容我的感受

这是成长的代价吗?
两年前,我失去了一位很要好的朋友。那种痛,我永远都不会忘记。
记得那天我收到她的死讯的那刻,我吓傻了…那时“他”还陪在我身边安慰我,我都还记得。
那种感觉就像从我心里割了一块肉出来似的。很痛很痛却无能为力。

一波未平一波又起,没想到,两年后的现在。
我再度失去了一个生命中重要的人。
一个彻底改变我的人。
一个在我人生最多波折期陪在我身边的人。
一个陪我经历最多的人。
一个这几年来我每天都见的人。
一个比我家人更亲的人。
一个比我自己更了解自己的人。
一个影响我最深的人。
一个爱得最深的人。
一个让我奋不顾身去原谅的人。

或许你不知道你在我心目中的位置
但是,我还有很多话想对你说,如果可以我还想对你说。

我不知道当初选择离开他是对还是错的。
我只知道这段感情我们都曾经做错了,在还没学会珍惜的时候就已经来不及挽回。
他是一个很有聪明,很有才华的人。我一直相信他在离开我后的生活会更好。
我一直盼望他成功,实现他的梦想…就算他的未来没有我的参与…我只希望他过的好。

但是,为什么上天你要如此残忍。

原来这种才是真正的失去。。。

我无法形容我的痛。

在关心我的人勉强故作坚强还真的有点累。

据说,我是个坚强的女生,但我的坚强是因为你。
现在,坚强是为了什么?是要来干什么的?

当你流多少眼泪都无法改变事实的时候才是真正的痛。

现在的我,只知道。。。。
无论我做什么都无补于事了。

Tuesday, 15 April 2014

OOTD

Fashion is important because, if the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning is to put on a clean presentable outfit, you would feel really good about yourself. It's presenting yourself. BUT, My kind of "style" is kinda boring. Because i'm a lazy person, i like to dress up but i'm lazy to put on "too much" sometimes…By right, I'm just not a very FASHIONABLE person. I prefer something casual, something really common. Maybe just a piece of dress with a plain color heels, or a plain color top with a denim short.. THAT'S IT! loll… 

& guess what i've found lately? It's a Singapore based boutique! I love all their clothes.

Here's some look of myself from www.hollyhoque.com

They are a Singapore based fashion label and have been in the industry for around 6 years already!
Apart from having an online store, they also have 1 store in Far East Plaza #01-31 and another store opening at Orchard Gateway in April. Almost 90% of their apparels are self manufactured, so you won't find them selling anywhere else!

They do accept Paypal & Maybank transfer for Malaysian buyers 

Some outfits detail i got from www.hollyhoque.com

Night Cropped Top + Monochrome loving floral skirt 
something simple, cropped top is really awesome, it matches everything!
Florals are summer essential, and this floral dress is no exception. The pretty floral pattern will bring your wardrobe into full bloom, while the criss cross back gives your look a cheeky edge. Slip on your strappy heels with minimal accessories and you are good to go!
Made of Chiffon with inner lining. ONE of my favorite dress!! :D
Invest in a simple staple with a little something extra when you go for this multi strap dress.
The strap detail does all the work of a statement necklace! Team with a pair of skyscraper heels and a sliver cuff for an elegant chic evening. Made of polyester nylon materia, fully lined, back zip.
Guess what, although they are based in Singapore.. BUT they ship to Malaysia!!

and WAIT!! Dear readers, i have another good news for you all...
ENTER discount code: karenmsia for free registered shipping (Worth SGD6) 



alright …...
Visit their website for more! http://www.hollyhoque.com
 or their Facebook page at Hollyhoque



For any enquries, feel free to email hollyhoque@gmail.com (: 


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