20 November 2013
Dear readers, i apologize for neglecting my blog. My life is a bit messy right now, after breakup. Life gets tough these days, been busy for the whole month. I was trying to keep myself busy for the past few weeks, don't really have time to stay at home and write a blog posts. The moment when i see my blog's traffic decrease, i'm gets really upset and depressed.. i feel like giving up on my blog, but i can't.. It's part of my journey, no matter how hard my life gets.. life goes on..blogging is part of my career, i can't give up.. & i keep reminding myself..i have dream and goal to achieve (with or without him).. That's why i'm here again..*blogging*
I'm struggling with my life and been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. I don't know am i suppose to blog about my feeling (sounds stupid cause normally i will just motivate people), but seriously i don't know where else i can express my feeling anymore. Please allow me to be emotional tonight.
1251 days. It's the longest relationship i ever had, never expect our love will be end.
The happiness and excitement of a new relationship can overpower everything else. BUT, Nothing stays new forever, though. I wonder : "Will things get better?" "Should I give it another chance?" "should i just ignore all these problem" "I'm lazy to find a new guy and start a relationship all over again" "Maybe i should learn to accept imperfection" "Will I regret if we broke up?" Well, Breaking up isn't an easy decision. My life is so out-of-balance, facing everything myself is not easy. Maybe i'm not used to it, sooner or later i will be fine. *lol* Lesson learned, don't rely on anyone too much.. or else you will fall down even harder. I'm still feeling insecure sometimes..but...I'm die trying to get back up..trying to be independent......and face my LIFE.
A break-up is an opportunity to learn, too. IT'S NOT EASY. No matter what, relationships is still valuable. Each relationship happens to teach us something about ourselves, another person, and what we want and need in a future partner. It's a chance for us to learn to care about another person and to experience being cared about. Thanks for all the experiences and lessons.
Anyways, 祝你幸福. All the best for your future.
Hmmmmm, i guess that's all for today, can't squeeze words out anymore.
I had many many many thoughts in my brain, but i just can't seem to express it out. LOL!
That's it that's it! Good night !